Yup, that’s me!
But I didn’t always look like that or have the confidence to strut across the stage in a hot pink bikini. Like a lot of you, I struggled with my weight, and in my lowest of lows, I was displeased with my appearance and felt beyond defeated about my physical shape.
Believe it or not, I had back surgery a year-and-a-half before that photo was taken. I had a badly herniated disc that required surgery. And as much as I would like to think I am immune to life’s hiccups… I’m not. I’m guessing many of you can relate to that sentiment.
Post-Surgery I struggled a lot, but thankfully, the surgery itself was a success! Even though successful, I was not out of the woods nor was it sunshine and rainbows. It was debilitating and depressing to go from my highly active lifestyle to a sedentary one. And, adding to it all, I was completely dependent on people to help me bathe, get dressed, and even to help me sit down and get up from the toilet. I felt useless and embarrassed.
During my recovery, I lost muscle and a bunch of strength. I lost too much weight because I couldn’t eat and then gained too much weight when I finally could eat. It was a constant mental and physical battle; pretty much a roller coaster of descent.
Being disgusted with my physical appearance and depressed about the state of my life made feeling confident and driven nonexistent. If you’ve ever felt like that, believe me, I get it. And like me, you might realize you have to do something to pull yourself out of your funk.